Heal, Support, Balance.
Those are my words this year to focus on in response to the challenge from Elena at Just.Be.Enough.
I am doing great making progress with two and failing miserable with the third. I’m sure my closest friends and family could tell you exactly which one that is!
I know that I am healing… although I still have some pretty miserable days. It always strikes when it is least expected. But being an Ambassador mom for our local March of Dimes region has helped me tremendously. You can read more about that experience here. Through my efforts, speaking to groups, and telling our story, I feel closer to Kathryn. I also know that I am doing something to raise awareness for prematurity, Twin to Twin Transfusion Syndrome, and hydrops-fetalis. It has actually been a gift to me to be able to throw myself into this project that is helping me heal.
But on the other hand, it makes the problem child, “Balance” even more difficult for me. Because all I want to do round the clock is get out and make a difference, volunteer, lobby, advocate, fundraise, find a cure!
That combined with the writer’s bug that I have is not making it easy for me to find a good between my own needs and the needs of my small children. Small children have many needs! I often fear that one day my children will look back and complain that I was a better mother to my dead daughter than to the three living children. That is where I need to focus my progress in the balance arena. Making sure my children are always the first priority. That is not always an easy task.
I also need to work on progress in the “support” element. I am full of support for the loss community, the TTTS community, and the organizations that I have chosen to give my full backing to, but I have wondered lately if I am supporting my loved ones well enough. When was the last time i sent a card or a care package to someone I actually have met in person? Not to say that the things that I do voluntarily for strangers are not important, because they are vital, but I need to do better at supporting the people that have supported me over the years as well.
The thought occurred to me that I have been slacking off in this department the other day as I wondered why no one was responding to my requests for walkers and donations on my March for Babies team.
I realized that in many ways, Facebook no longer really connects us, but allows us to operate in a bubble in which we believe we are connected to hundreds of people but really have no idea what is going on in most peoples lives. I only see the newsfeed for about 5 people consistently, so why would I think that the whole world would be completely in touch with my requests and needs? When was the last time I went to someone’s page and read down their page, looked at their pictures, commented, and engaged? (Well, actually it was yesterday after I had this epiphany!) So in the upcoming months I am going to focus on supporting the people IN my life as well as the people that I am helping through the grief or advocacy communities.
I suppose it’s a good thing that it is only the beginning of April so that I still have more than half of the year to continue working on these things! I am linking up with Just.Be.Enough for “Making Progress in your 3 Words Journey.”
And just as I had three words, I also have THREE winners from my “moving in!” celebration! Congratulations to the following 3 lovely ladies:
Marie O. is the winner of “The Magical Toothfairies” DVD and book!
Kerry R. is the winner of the free One Hour Blog Consult from Julie DeNeen at Fabulous Blogging!
And Dana is the winner of the 30 Days of Muchness Cards from Finding My Muchness!
I will be in touch with all of you soon!