I had some sort of an Epiphany this week. I realized that I have spent most of my life in fear. Fear of rejection, fear of failure, maybe even fear of success. And it has held me back. I laughed at the irony that I write every day on a blog called “No Holding Back” when that is exactly the opposite of what I have been doing all this time.
Of course there have been times when I just went for it, such as my move to France after graduating college, which turned into an amazing adventure and is the inspiration for my book The Boys I Left in Paris. However, there are other areas in my life (such as my writing to a certain degree, weight loss, personal appearance, and more) in which I seem to just give up before I even start. I haven’t believed in myself.
Why is that? I could give you a whole list of psycho babble about things that were said to me as a kid, feelings of rejection and abandonment, issues with my parents, so on and so forth, but the underlying commonality goes back to fear. In some way, I am afraid of what it takes to get to success.
It’s time to stop being afraid.
So, I’m writing and submitting at every chance I get. Who cares if someone says no. Others are saying YES!
As for dieting – I desperately need a lifestyle change. My health depends on it. I have Hashimoto’s Disease (thyroid) and Lupus, and I feel like CRAP! The more research I conduct the more I find out how much food can play a role in this. I’m tired, achy, and my brain is foggy. I want to fix that.
I’m taking on a change. In February, I am going to begin The Hypothyroid Diet (more about this in February). I am reading the book below, and so far I am very impressed and feel like I have a true shot at success by making this type of lifestyle/eating change. I really like how Dr. Dobrzynski explains what is happening with your body when you have a thyroid disease, and how food impacts it. It makes total sense.
I started a two day SpeedLoss (R) detox program today to get the ball in motion. I know it’s going to be tough for me (not just the detox, but lifestyle change in general) so I have found a community to support me.
I joined a group of bloggers on a mission to get Slim by Summer.
If you feel so inclined, you can join us too!
It’s time to believe in myself, toss the fear to the side, and have some faith that I can make things happen for myself!
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