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October 9, 2012 by katbiggie Leave a Comment

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For 32 days I lay in a hospital bed, miserable, sad, depressed, completely uncomfortable.  I did not know what a blessing that time was.

For 32 days I listened to your heartbeat, felt you move, sat in silence with you.  I watched you on ultrasounds, I talked to you.  I had you and your twin sister all to myself.  No interruptions.  No activities to distract me.  I did not know that would be almost all the time I got with you.

For 30 weeks and 5 days I carried you in my womb.  I did not know that I would only hold you once.  That I would only see you for 2 days.  

I did not know I would never hear you cry. 

Darling daughter.  I did not know that the one time I would hold you would be as your life left your little body. 

For two days we watched you struggle.  For two days you blessed us with your presence.  I did not know you would be gone after only 52 hours.

I did not know I could love you so much after such a short time.

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