I am sick. I have been sick for over a week and I can’t seem to get well. As I get physically worse, my mental state deteriorates as well. I am sad. I am overwhelmed. My brain doesn’t want to work right. I look around and wonder how I will ever crawl out of this […]
When the only option is death
Rest in peace Robin Williams. I truly mean that. I hope you have finally found the quiet you desperately needed. I pray that your desperate action will help and save countless others. I couldn’t sleep last night. My mind just could not stop thinking about that moment in “Dead Poet’s Society” when the boys […]
All I Know is Pain
“Oh no buddy, what happened?” I could tell by the way my son held his head low and slithered into the van at pick up on Monday that something was not right. “I don’t even want to tell you about it,” he stated. “Did you have a rough day?” And then he just started venting. […]
Defeated
Yesterday I had a really bad day. It wasn’t the grief. It was the depression, which reared it’s ugly head. There was an event that initiated this downward spiral, which I will get to in a moment. I committed to blogging about Mental Health issues this year with Blog For Mental Health, and I want […]
Lying Cold and on the Floor
I couldn’t stand up. I did not want to stand up. I did not want to get dressed or eat or leave the apartment. I just lay still on the floor as tears rolled down my face. I was paralyzed by something I just did not understand. I was afraid if I left to go […]
