If you are a TTTS parent and you don’t know about Teeny Tears, you need to learn about it. It’s a fabulous service organization to any one who has lost a baby… you’ll read more farther down. I want to feature the founder and her TTTS story, and to say that I have finally brought my NICU into the Teeny Tears community. I am glad to bring the hospital that we have loved and lost in into the folds of this community.
I am proud to be a part of Teeny Tears, and want you to know Megan, the amazing mom who started it all.
I want to share a quote that Megan posted recently from one of the Teeny Tears representatives who attended a bereavement conference in Chicago.
“Being at the conference was a wonderful chance to hear from hospitals that were already using Teeny Tears diapers about how much they were appreciated by the staff and the families. The nurses loved having something to offer the families that was handmade with such love. The conference was also a great chance to introduce new hospitals to the diapers. Nothing is as convincing as seeing how truly small the diapers are and touching them to feel how soft they are for delicate skin.” ~Katrina
I originally posted this sotry on Jan 22, 2013. It’s worth re-visiting.
I mentioned last month that I wanted to weave in stories of the amazing TTTS mothers and some of the accomplishments that have come from their grief of losing one or both babies. If you have been following my blog for awhile, you may remember my involvement with Teeny Tears. You can see the diapers I made here. I am not done providing for Teeny Tears, I just have not had the time to get to my sewing machine lately! This is, however, one of my favorite service projects and just an amazing way to give back to other parents who have lost an infant.
So today I am proud to highlight my friend Megan, who created and has grown Teeny Tears into an amazing project, and is just an incredible and beautiful, strong woman, and someone I am proud to call a friend. I hope you will read her beautiful story, and if you feel compelled, join the Teeny Tears movement!
Crew and Dex’s Story
In the summer of 2008, our family received the exciting and surprising news that we were expecting twins! Knowing that we were now involved in a high risk pregnancy, I hopped onto the internet and learned all I could. In the back of my mind all I kept thinking was, “people have twins every day! This is not scary; this is exciting!”
Dex was placed in my arms wearing this beautiful handmade gown that was appropriately sized for his tiny body. The bereavement specialist at the hospital took hand molds and feet molds so that we could always remember how small he had been. They took beautiful pictures of him that we count among our greatest treasures today. They were even able to take a few pictures of our sons together in Crew’s incubator, the only photos we will ever have of them together outside of the womb.
I don’t wish to give the impression that my heart wasn’t completely broken, because the truth is that I didn’t know how I could bear to live without him. There were so many moments of anguish, nights that I was afraid to fall asleep, tortured thoughts of how we could have saved him with earlier intervention.
Sometimes the miracle is in the miraculous healing of a child against all odds, as we received with Crew. And sometimes the miracle is in the healing of our hearts when trials and tragedy strike, crushing our expectations and threatening our faith.
As we came closer and closer to Dex and Crew’s third birthday, I began searching for a project that would honor Dex’s memory and give purpose to my grief. I was looking for something economical, meaningful, and within my limited sewing abilities.
I would make tiny little diapers for stillborn micropreemie infants and those that pass away in the NICU. We launched Teeny Tears last November.
Approximately 26,000 children are stillborn in the United States every year, about 1 in 160 births. Another 19,000 children die within the first 28 days of life. A significant number of these angels are preemie or micropreemie infants. The littlest angels are so small that even the very tiniest Pampers NICU diaper is far too large for them. Besides that, their skin is so delicate that commercial diapers are very damaging.
Our volunteers donate to hospitals and bereavement support organizations at no charge. These small diapers fit angels between 18 and 23 weeks gestation. The large ones fit angels between about 24 and 30 or 32 weeks. The need for these diapers is enormous and endless. Gone are the days when angel babies must be left with naked bums because there is nothing suitable. No longer must nurses try to fashion a “diaper” out of cotton balls and tape. Our little diapers offer dignity and modesty to the tiniest angel babies. We provide two diapers per family, so that the parents don’t have to choose whether to keep the diaper in a memory box or to bury the diaper with their child. This way they can do both.
Grieving parents often feel very lost, alone, and confused. Every special effort to honor their loss goes a long way. It is very difficult for a family to say goodbye to their child before they got to say a decent hello. These diapers, made with love, tell parents that someone understands that their child existed, that they are special, loved, real, and that they matter. The love that goes into these diapers tells a grieving parent that someone understands that their loss is tremendous. Because “a person’s a person, no matter how small.”
Teeny Tears is my way to make sure that Dex and all of his angel friends are remembered. It has been an unexpectedly joyful and healing endeavor and I have met some of the most caring and generous people along the way. Many of our volunteers are angel families themselves, some of them still the walking wounded. As they participate in serving others in a similar plight, a miracle happens. They find their own sorrows lessened and their hearts begin to heal. Joy is found and lives are changed.
What began as a personal labor of love for the angel families at my friend’s local hospital in Washington and then ours in Utah has caught on like wildfire within the bereavement community. We have a busy Facebook group filled with volunteers across the United States as well as in Canada, Australia, and New Zealand who are gathering their families, friends, neighbors, and churches to serve Heavenly Father’s tiniest children and their bereaved families. We even made our first delivery to a hospital in Guatemala.
As an inexpensive, simple, unique, educational, and meaningful service opportunity, our diapers are being sewn by families, sewing clubs, youth groups, Eagle Projects, Angel Mother grief support organizations, and churches of all religious denominations. We encourage our volunteers to donate within their local communities and we also match volunteers with hospitals all over the country on our growing waiting list. Grandmothers are digging their flannel scraps out of storage, families are repurposing old receiving blankets and shopping yard sales for fabric remnants. And we know when all the fabric sales are going on!
To date, our volunteers have donated more than 21,000 diapers to grieving angel families across the world. While I wish no one ever needed our diapers, I am pleased that there is something that we can try to do for these families to let them know that they are not alone.
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