Living With Purpose
I feel quiet and still this week. The air feels like it is made of thick jelly, and I’m struggling to breathe. Each step takes effort. The last few weeks have exhausted me, drained me, made me proud, made me happy, made me sad. While we accomplished something wonderful through our efforts for the March […]
I met Taylor in the TTTS Grief Support group. It was shortly after she lost her girls and she was devastated. Today we honor her girls by sharing their story. Taylor’s experience shows how suddenly TTTS can occur and further emphasizes why earlier and more frequent ultrasounds are so important in multiples pregnancies. Heatherly […]
I used to use Blogger, which is where I started my blog at www.noholdingback1212.com. That was a great platform to start on but I am ready to move on to bigger things! I’m so happy you have followed me over! This is one of my very first posts where I told the world who I […]
ne year ago today, we packed up all of our belongings and left the NICU for the very last time. After twelve LONG weeks, we were taking our Tiny home. One of our twins was coming home. The other had gone to be with God 11 weeks and 5 days earlier. Birth – 1 lb […]
Do we ever get over infant loss? Big green eyes look at me curiously as I stare off into space, daydreaming of the little girl I see in my dreams. Her long brown hair blows in the wind as she romps around a field of daisies, waving at me and smiling! “Hi Mommy!” she calls […]
Who doesn’t love a good quote from Winnie the Pooh? “If ever there is tomorrow when we’re not together… there is something you must always remember. You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if we’re apart… I’ll always be with […]
My first exposure to “baby loss” occurred in April 2005. Friends of mine, Anja and Corey, were expecting their first baby. She was a week overdue, and noticed she felt no movement. They went into the hospital on a Friday night, but when they arrived it was already too late. At some point that evening the […]
We all have ways of measuring things, passing time, marking key events. When you go through something as horrific as TTTS and infant loss, or the loss of anyone you love, there are so many dates, events, memories. When it was diagnosed, when we had procedures, when the babies were born. When Kathryn died. I dreaded […]
Tweet #muchnesspicoftheday We all have it… everyone has their muchness. Sometimes it is hard to find. Sometimes we just lose it. I have been busy lately trying to find mine again. I found an amazing woman named Tova Gold who “lost her muchness” after she lost her identical twin daughters to TTTS. She has created […]
