I remember the first time your tiny little fingers wrapped around mine. You were four days old.
Thus far, you only knew life in my womb, with your twin, and in the NICU, alone. Save for the NICU nurses and the loyal family and friends who came to you, prayed for you, hoped for you.
I still had not even been able to hold you, but you found a way to let me know you loved me.
Inside that incubator you were fighting to grow, fighting to breathe, fighting to exist.
1lb and about 12 oz by then of pure strength.
The diaper that was hardly larger than a panty liner engulfed your lower body.
Your skin – translucent.
Your coloring – pale.
Your eyes – covered with blue goggles to protect you from the warming light.
Your breathing – still aided by a CPAP.
But your spirit – vibrant.
Two days earlier, you lost your soul mate, your womb buddy, your identical twin sister.
But this day, you let me know you were here to stay.
I remember that moment. The moment you let me know I could begin to hope.
I could begin to dream of taking you home.
My arms would not be left completely empty.
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Susan says
May 24, 2013 at 9:55 amYou have painted an amazing picture of that tiny moment in time. I can’t imagine how tiny your child was or what your journey has been. But in that moment, I can see the tiny hand and feel your momma heart. Thank you for sharing.
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katbiggie says
May 24, 2013 at 10:07 amThank you so very much!
Angela says
May 24, 2013 at 12:00 pmThere is nothing like that moment when you first meet your child and connect in that way only another mom can understand! Visiting from the Ladies Only Blog Share!
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katbiggie says
May 24, 2013 at 12:36 pmThank you for coming by! Yes, it is a special moment!
Michelle says
May 24, 2013 at 6:53 pmThat was amazing! I cannot begin to imagine what you must have gone through but there is something very magical about a tiny new baby and the connection between mother and child!
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Tell Another Mom says
May 24, 2013 at 9:36 pmThis was such a great post. You allowed us all to experience your moment with your beautiful words. So glad I found your blog through the blog share!
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NJ @ A Cookie Before Dinner says
May 26, 2013 at 1:59 pmWhat a sweet painful picture you paint. I can’t imagine all of the emotions you went through during that time. I’m visiting today from the Ladies Only Blog Share.
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katbiggie says
May 26, 2013 at 6:04 pmThank you and I appreciate your visit!
The Mayor (sharon) says
May 27, 2013 at 2:38 pmOh, you just made me want to hug my little ones. Just a half an hour ago I wanted to scream at the anger of motherhood. You reminded me how precious life and a child’s love is. Blessing to you and your family.