Living With Purpose
Two days ago (December 10th) was my twins’ first Birthday. Only one of them was here for us to celebrate with. Today is the one year anniversary of sweet Kathryn’s death. We had her in our world for 52 hours. I am struggling greatly to find the balance between gratefulness, happiness, and grief so strong […]
This is my 100th post. Yay! Pop the champagne! Very appropriately it is true to the overall nature of my blog. Surviving after the loss of a child. I wrote this a few days ago but I am glad I did not post it then. I was having a REALLY BAD DAY! Thankfully, the […]
My first exposure to “baby loss” occurred in April 2005. Friends of mine, Anja and Corey, were expecting their first baby. She was a week overdue, and noticed she felt no movement. They went into the hospital on a Friday night, but when they arrived it was already too late. At some point that evening the […]
Over the next few weeks, you may all think that I have gone completely “off the reservation” as the saying goes. That’s me folks. I think I’m driving the crazy train, losing my marbles, wigging out… every used up cliche you can think of. Muddled up. Please don’t “mute” me, I’m just working my way […]
On Thanksgiving Day last year, November 24, 2011, I had been lying in a hospital bed for 17 days, hoping and praying that my babies would be able to continue to grow stronger. It was lonely. I slept most of the day, in and out of a groggy state, wondering how much longer I would […]
Growing Up in Heaven: The Eternal Connection Between Parent and Child by James Van Praagh My rating: 2 of 5 stars I decided to buy and read this book because it had been recommended by numerous people as a great book for a grieving parent. It was not a great book for this grieving parent. […]
My bleep is bigger than yours. I used to really like the band Korn. Ok, I’m not gonna lie. I still really like the band Korn, but I just don’t allow myself to listen to their music with little ears around. But lately, there has been this one line of one particular song that is […]
November 8th. One year ago today I was anxiously awaiting my weekly appointment to see Dr. Browne. I was just over 26 weeks pregnant with the girls, and the week before had not been a good appointment. I reflected on what the doctor had told us at the last appointment. Kathryn was getting worse each […]
Now I know there are some people that probably think I’m bat bleep crazy for posting about a football player, but y’all, I live in South Carolina, and the one thing that binds us all (well, many of us!) together and drives us all apart down here is our love for college football! I am […]
Yesterday the family participated in a lovely walk of remembrance and ceremony for all babies gone too soon. I had been looking forward to this event for months. The children were excited about going to the park, and really got excited when they found out they were going to get to send some balloons to […]
Tweet In memory of my beautiful baby, I’d like to share the beautiful beach butterflies we had made in her honor.Love you sweet girl! Also, today I am very pleased to be spreading more TTTS awareness on my friend Stacey’s blog, called “Glued to My Crafts! LOVE her page! lots of fun crafts, recipes, […]
Tweet In memory of my beautiful baby, I’d like to share the beautiful beach butterflies we had made in her honor.Love you sweet girl! Also, today I am very pleased to be spreading more TTTS awareness on my friend Stacey’s blog, called “Glued to My Crafts! LOVE her page! lots of fun crafts, recipes, […]
TweetThis was an important post to me, and I want it to recirculate… as we remember our lost babies over this month, week, and especially on the 15th, once again I want to re-iterate how thankful I am to the family, friends, and strangers who helped, have help, and will continue to help us get […]
TweetFor 32 days I lay in a hospital bed, miserable, sad, depressed, completely uncomfortable. I did not know what a blessing that time was. For 32 days I listened to your heartbeat, felt you move, sat in silence with you. I watched you on ultrasounds, I talked to you. I had you and your twin […]
